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My first blog of 2026 !!!

Last year I've had many dreams. I don't typically remember them and I just began writing them down, or at least trying to. 

But a reoccurring dream I've had this year always had something to do with me not being able to speak up and feeling so powerless. And that looked different in each dream, but I can always tell what they were saying to me. 

So I'm gonna just talk about power. And by power I don't mean it in the sense that I rule over anyone or anything, but more so the power that I hold to myself. Being able to speak up, and voice your boundaries. Not letting people play you in your face. That kind of thing. 

I like to think of myself as an understanding individual. I do believe in fairness and harmony but I also do think my way is the right way most times.

At a certain point though, how understanding can I be before I see that I am doing a disservice to myself?

I feel like I reached a point where me being understanding was me settling for a lot of things I did not really need to deal with. It just wasn't fair to Leo. And maybe it said something about my self-respect too, cause if you know better you quite literally will do better.

I went through an interesting string of events in 2025 and when I explained it to a friend she told me "Leo, you hold a lot more power than over this than you realize". While that's such a simple statement, I genuinely never thought of it that way because I was always trying to find a way to make the situation easier, but not for me. Like I was just being okay with stuff that didn't feel 100% right to me. Which again, is not fair to Leo.

I think I was just scared of the losses that come with walking away from those situations. I really wanted things to go right, I really wanted these people here, and the thought of changing these dynamics frightened me. I don't do well with change (I love being a Taurus). But change has to happen for growth right? I think I know a thing or two about that. 

While change is uncomfortable, it's not fair to allow myself to be in a box or live in an uncomfortable reality because it's familiar, or because I'm intimidated by change. 

It's not like I don't like change, I just like routine and familiarity more. 

While I do have the power to make changes in my life I also have the power to reshape how I feel about change and how to just learn with what comes with that. 

I think a lot of power comes with that. We all have that power to make decisions in our life to shape how we want to live. 


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