You Really Have to Just Do.

 Doing stuff sometimes is just so weird. Me personally, I go through mental blockage and it's not even the task itself that is hard (most times), it's just starting the task. Even getting out of bed is hard these days. But I also don't really sleep enough so that can very much be a factor.

Anyway this past weekend I vended for the first time ever. If you follow me on any social media you definitely know that. It was my first time selling my art and I received so much support than I anticipated. As someone who suffers from imposter syndrome I'm still kinda processing this and it 's crazy to know how much people care about me enough to support me. 

But I've never done anything like that before.

And I never planned to either.

The opportunity kinda just presented itself. And I just took it. And I had a great turnout. Even if I had a bad turnout what matters is I did it. 

I know I'm capable of many things and I know I have plenty potential, but I really don't believe in myself the way others do. That stops me from putting myself out there, which sucks because like in my first post I said people need to know who I am. I let too many opportunities go because of fear. What if people hate it? What if I hate it? What if, what if, what if, what if, what if...

But the thing is, literally who cares! You really just HAVE to do! You HAVE to do things! If you know it'll make you happy literally why not just do it! If it's something you want out there why not try and go get it?!

There was a meme on twitter that I see from to time where this lady is like "I think you guys think about yourselves too much". And I think about it a lot because I feel like she's right lol. I think me overthinking something going wrong or me just overthinking a simple task just makes me want to do it less. I even overthink my social interactions to where I just don't say a thing. And that sucks.

That's why you have to just do. Who literally cares what others think. Who even cares what you think. Just do it man.

And I'm happy that I'm just doing it. 

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